Thursday, October 26, 2006

Sssh! Be vewy, vewy quiet. I'm hunting content!

Sometimes I think I let this thing run my life. After almost two years straight of blogging every weekday or feeling extreme guilt when I didn't/couldn't, it can be rather tough to yank out anything worth reading.

I complain about this regularly enough, I guess, but it bears repeating: sometimes, I want to do anything but this. I hope you can't tell when I'm "phoning it in" from my end. Heck, I TELL you half the time, so I guess I'm shooting myself in the foot. It's not that I'm out of imagination or conversation or stories; it's what happens when I sit down to write at my desk. The story was funnier earlier and I can't find the best words. I'm posting about the cats. Again. Or I'm posting about something that not even I can bear reading.

Sometimes it's that I'd rather pursue one of my other hobbies. I had time yesterday, so I started my new library book, John Le Carre's The Constant Gardener. I loved the movie, so I thought I'd go to the source, especially after enjoying Tinker Tailor Soldier Spy so much. Today, I'm all tapped out. The time I could steal is being dedicated to this post.

And so it goes.

I think the difference between this hobby and my other ones is you. There are other people taking part in this whole debacle, and that means something. If I were sewing a purse for a friend, that would probably take a bit more precedence. If I were in a book club, the book would jump up the priority list. It's all a balancing act, and you guys matter to me.

That's probably why I keep ekeing these puppies out. I wish the quality were higher, the insights more frequent, the photos more copious (and just better). It gives me great joy to do this, and I'd do it just for myself at least sometimes, but you keep me coming back. Your comments, your related stories, your links and personalities. Your blogs, for those of you who have them, are also a big part of the fun.

I have a lot of reasons to shoulder on, it seems. But just in case, I think I'll ask for this book for Christmas. Can't hurt.


Graceful Peaceful German Fischer said...

Hey dudette - you going to Smith/Marsh nuptials? You know if Kels is too?

E.A.P said...

Sure will! Kels is going, too. We're sharing a room. Email me for specifics, if you need 'em. Are you coming? I'm so happy we're making it up there - I think it's going to be big on Grovers. Weee!